Miz Gin

So, tomorrow is the big day! I'll officially be done with high school and off into the "Real World". I never thought i'd cry...i've never been that kind, but when I was doing the history speech at Class Night I couldn't hold it back. I'm truly gonna miss these people that have annoyed me so damn much these past 13 years.

I'm not scared...just kinda sad. I wanna move on, get through college, and become a successful criminal defense attorney. I just don't wanna go on without my friends. They've always been there. Now who am I gonna call at 3am when I just broke up with my boyfriend and there's nobody there to give me a big hug and tell me everything's gonna be ok. I'm happy that Tab's gonna be my roommate but I know she ain't gonna wanna be woke up at 3am. I can hear her now..."Take ya ass to bed cuz he ain't worth all that...and I got a 8o'clock class gal Love ya...night!" Lmao....man....

Ugh....i wish time could freeze at times! I'ma miss these big heads...even Duck and Bernie! LOL! Oh well...but on ya serious face...it's big kid time! See ya'll at graduation tomorrow...and hopefully at the party @ tha F.O.E.

ok...so i'm preparing to leave for basic right after graduation or as soon after as possible. I dunno how well i'ma like it but i'll have to deal with it i guess. Big happy face or maybe just my mean face...either or. Kinda worried about wut Jessie is gonna say when he finds outs....btw, he is not to find out until after he gets home from afghanistan...he has enough shit to worry about so if ya know him don't say nothing.

ugh...i can't believe i'm bout to graduate. Prom was ok...after prom was fuckin awesome....hahahaha....grown folk bidness! But ummm....i'll eventually post pics!

welpers, i gotta work on my slide show...

Why is it that i seem to always fight over a dude? I mean..i ain't got no beef with nobody. It ain't my fault he called me and wanted to see me. I ain't do shit anyways but ya know. See....that shit just irks me!! And why they wanna jump somebody? If you can't take me by ya damn self then don't try to fight me. I mean....be fa real! Plus i stay ready..go head and jump me. I got something for all ya'll bitches!! Run up and get done up!! That's just how i do!!!

Ugh....see i'm really pissed! I'll never understand these females. That's why i'm cool with dudes. They don't give a damn bout that petty shit. Fuck the dumbshit!!!

Wut the fuck was i thinking? Oh my goodness!!! I was oh so proud of myself. Hadn't done nothing in an EXTREMELY long time.....but i was like, "aww...just this once..." God i'm dumb!! I swear i should just get stupid tattooed on my forehead!!! Ugh.....wasn't all bad....actually enjoyed it...lmao...but it was still bad.....i'm suppose to be 100% celebit....

Really need to talk to stupid....get everything out in the open...but he's so damn stubborn...and so am i. maybe i should be the bigger person and call him...yeah right...ain't happen'n. I've made the initiative move every damn time...it's his turn....i really don't care no more....i'm doing my own damn thing anyway....

Worked sucked ass. Well, wut can you expect when you crawl into bed at like 5:30am and get back up at 8am? I mean....i knew the lack of sleep would get to me but DAMN!! I thought i was gonna die. Got off at like 5pm.....pissed off. Ready to crawl back into bed but i knew i had to go walking with Kizzy. Exercise is always good for ya. I feel a little better now. I would go to bed but Mystic is coming over when her ma gets off work. Grrr....sleep would be SO nice right now.....oh well, i'll be ok! the walk was refreshing and i got to fill my friend in on some dirt...lmao! she's gon' beat my ass!!!

Prom's coming up way too quick...still gotta get my shoes and set up my hair appointment. Goodness...it's in 2 weeks. Then graduation....i'ma be 18 in a couple months. Then college....then law school...then a real job....then kids....lmao...okay everything but the kids...don't need them for a VERY long time. I'm not the mother type. I'm good with Brook and Mason but that's cause i raised Brook and Mason loves me! lmao....

welp, i need to do.....something....anything....so i'ma go head and quit writing in this thing. *muahs*

-Gin

With tears in my eyes i dial his number
one ring, two rings, three rings, voicemail
fuck....choke back tears...big kid voice
yea, it's me. Call me back. *click*
damn...the tears come. i can't stop them
sitting there mad, sad, everything but glad
What was i thinking? Why do I care?
Does it really matter if he calls back?
Of course it does. If he didn't it'd be even worse.
Suck it up! Be a man..or woman...no more tears
*Ring Ring* put it on silent....can't bare to hear his voice
I'm never suppose to cry. I never show emotion.
What does he have over me? What puts him above the rest?
It has to be his style, or maybe it's his smile. Again I've fallen.
But this time it wasn't for a thug. More of a gentleman.
Or so I thought.
No phone call for days. No, "hey baby! how was ya day?"
Nothing. Just silence. Can't even get a damn email.
Usually I'd let it go, but I simply can't.
Don't know how to act. Mad but still in love.
Can't see me without him.
But I must. Just gotta move on.
I say it's over but he doesn't hear.
Carries on like nothings wrong. Thought he might act right.
Yea....right. Still the same. He ain't changed.
Ugh....confused. I bit my tounge one too many times.
And now I'm done. Finally, it's over.


Welp....i was extremely bored. It kinda sucks though. Help me improve ya'll! LOL!

I'm so sick of fake ass bitches. Come on now..grow the fuck up! I'll never understand ya'll hoes. Yeah, i called you a ho!! If I don't like you then you know. Don't act like we cool and smille all in my face then turn around and talk mess. You ain't hard bitch. Say it to muh face and see wut's happen'n! Ya'll already know da deal!!! I be damned if I run from anybody let alone some lil white bitch. I'm as real as they come and ya'll already know! So get the fuck up off my nutz....BITCH! I'll beat cha ass even though I just had surgery. Get BUCK!!! Go 'head....GET MOTHA FUCKIN BUCK!!!

To all of my lovely white females....keep it gangsta. I ain't talking bout ya'll. If we cool then you know this. I ain't fake like sum of these lil whores!

And yes this is pointed at one person and they should know who they are by now.....Welp, have a lovely day ya'll! *muahs*

-Miz Gin....and ya betta say the Miz!!

Not exactly sure of where we stand. I'm confused about where I wanna be. I love being loved. I love him. But I don't like the relationship. It's shakey and it's ridiculous at times. I miss talking to him for hours about pretty much nothing and being able to joke around without things going crazy. I miss the sweet things he always said right before he fell asleep...always freakin falling asleep on me!! Big dork! I don;t like not talking to him for days. That kills me!! Goodness....

I hope everything works out. I wanna be with him, but without the drama and whatnot. Well, everything happens for a reason. right? This is all part of some big plan that I'll eventually see.

I'm sick of Providence! Oh my freakin goodness. I'm so ready to snap on too damn many people. I'm oh so annoyed!

I'm so upset about what a certain person has done to a very special person to me. I mean, he's scuh a fuckin LOSER! I can't believe it! I feel so bad cuz there's not a whole lot I can do but let her know how awesome she isand give her cool pinecones! And also offer my cousin's services. I'ma give her the family price...free!! LOL!

I dunno what happened. I guess I just snapped. A piece of me has gone crazy. I blame it on LaBryant. I've never been so pissed in my life. I'm heading up the stairs to get my book out of Ms. Jackson's so Miranda can make a copy of my notes. He asked to see my hat and at first I said no cuz I know how he is. Then he said he promised he wouldn't steal it so I let him see it. Then his little trifflin' ass took off down the stairs. So I chased him down the stairs, across the hall, back up the stairs and across the hall. He handed it off to somebody that i didn't get a look at.

"FUCK! I can't believe them little sons of bitches stole me damn hat!!" I screamed. Everybody just kinda looked at me including the state monitor.

"Awww....she's gonna whoop ya ass!" somebody called after LaBryant. I calmly walked down stairs to the office and told Misty what happened. Of course LaBryant lied to her about not knowing who took it. By now I'm extremely pissed, acting a fool, and ready to bust him in his lip. After a lot of bullshit and him getting scared cuz I said "Misty,call his mom and get her down here so she can pay for it."

Normally I would've pouted and begged for it back until he pissed me off. For some reason I just snapped. Told him he was the reason abortions were legalized and if he didn't get my hat in the next five minutes he'd pay for it. Chased his ass down the hall and when i finally got the hat back I had to fight his ass off of it. Fucking hoodrat! DAMN!!!!!

I just don't feel like being nice anymore. I feel like being a bitch. I don't care if anybody likes me anymore. If they don't oh well. They can rot in hell!

*muahs*

Funny subject I suppose. I enjoy that phrase as well as..... Ya trout mouf, bird mouf, hook mouf, liver mouf mothafucka! LOL! Such great fun! Learned those from Joseph...

Hmmmm...today was a semi-good day. Still annoyed....still pissed..but it was an okay day. I'm ready to go to bed but i can't. I don't wanna go to sleep. I wanna saty up and play on the internet cuz I'm a junkie! God bless!

Welp, that's bout it for today. Just a quick note....you SUCK!!! LOL!

I feel so....so.....WHITE! I've never in my life felt like a white girl. I mean like the dumb ones who let their boyfriends disrespect them and walk all on 'em. I've never let any boyfriend get away with some of this shit. It's really getting at me. I've always been the one that pointed out the bad points in guys. Nobody has ever had to point them out to me. I feel so stupid, so hypocritical, so WHITE!! Ughhh....

I know Tori's reading this like, "WTF? Is Virginia stupid?" LOL! Atleast you know me better then the way I'm acting. Give me some damn advice, but not outloud...strictly confidential. Can't have everybody all up in my business! LOL! Can a sister get a lil help?

On a good note....got bunches of new clothes...mostly summer clothes though. Can't wait til Memorial Week-end. It's gonna be WILD! Lost 13 pounds....haven't gained any back. Oh so proud. I miss being my skinny self. I guess it was a good thing, me getting fat. I mean...i swore off sex when I was still small but it would have been alot harder if I had remained mini-sized. When I was tiny, I was hot. That's not good. I've grown up alot though so I can be skinny without dressing like a scrippa! LOL!

Welp, I gotta get ready for tonight....it's gonna be fun!

I feel the sudden urge to reach out and touch someone...and I don't mean in the nice way. I mean a full out punch to the fucking mouth or a nice knee to the groin and I HATE when people kick males in that region. It's not nice. But sometimes I just get tired of being so damn nice and I wanna make people as bad as I do.

I guess I've been kinda moody lately and I feel bad for people who have felt the blunt of my madness (i.e. Kizzy). I really don't mean to snap but when I get pissed it shows in my voice. I feel terrible about it! I guess I'm tired of dealing with stupid people and I'm tired of men. It seems as if they're all dogs and few try to even mask the dog within. I guess I end up with all the fucking dumbasses. Maybe I should just become a lesbian.....lol!

I didn't go to Psych today because I'm too mad. I know I'm gonna get set off and some poor, unsuspecting bystander is gonna get caught in the crossfire. I'd snap on them and feel horrible afterwards. I don't wanna feel bad....I wanna be pissed.

My life fucking sucks lately. I hate it. I shall move to some forgien land where I won't speak the lanuage so no man can talk to me! Sounds like a good plan to me. Oh well, have a nice fucking day!

Grrrr.......I only write in red when I'm mad (i.e. NOW). *psttt...ya'll can see it on my myspace blog*

Talking to big head on the phone..blah blah blah....hang on, gotta tell Leah something....blah blah...beep beep beep. Huh? Must of lost signal. Gave it a couple minutes so he could get in a good signal area. Guante answered cuz big head can't drive, shift, and talk on the phone at the same time. blah blah blah.....Big head in background "Oh it took you that long to realize I wasn't on the phone anymore?"...."Oh he hung up on me?".....Guante "Yea"......CLICK.....Beep beep beep.....Gin hung up......

It annoys me that people view relationships in double standards. You can hang up on me but I can't hang up on you? HA HA HA.....ya made dat bullshit.....

Not really mad anymore....annoyed but not mad. This leads me back to my subject: "Boys are stupid....throw rocks at 'em!"

My older brother recently sent me this. It's great. Note: he's the the orginal Sapper Redneck.


Take a man and put him alone,
Put him twelve thousand miles from home.
Empty his heart of all but blood,
Make him live in sand, in mud.
This is the life I have to live,
This the soul to God I give.
You have your parties and drink your beer,
While young men are dying over here.
Plant your signs on the White House lawn;
"Lets get out of Iraq".
Use your signs and have your fun,
Then refuse to use a gun.
There's nothing else for you to do,
Then I'm supposed to die for you?
There is one thing that you should know;
And that's where I think you should go!
I'm already here and it's too late.
I've traded all my love for all this hate.
I'll hate you till the day I die.
You made me hear my buddy cry.
I saw his leg and his blood shed,
Then I heard them say, "This one's dead".
It was a large price for him to pay,
To let you live another day.
He had the guts to fight and die,
To keep the freedom you live by.
By his dying, your life he buys,
But who gives a FUCK if a Soldier dies!

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Funny funny story:

Okay so I just went to my house right quick to let my dogs go outside. Well, I let 'em out and call my mom to ask her a quick question but she doesn't answer so i leave a message. Then I let the dogs back in, lock the house up, and proceed to get in the car. I start it up, put it in reverse, start to back up out the driveway, and I start ringing. WHAT? I don't have that ringtone. I reach into my hoodie pocket and there's my housephone. LOL! I found it funny anyways.....